Monday, September 27, 2010
What's going through my head today...
I wanted to take a quick break from recording what I'm reading in my bible to just get out some of my thoughts. I'm in a time of transition...again. Jason and I started looking at houses over the summer and have gone out a few times to narrow down our search. Our current house is on the market but we're afraid it won't sell. Even if it does sell, it won't sell for much. The sellers market is crap right now. I'm incredibly torn b/c I love this house. My blood, sweat, and tears were poured into this house that we've made our home over the last 5 or so years. I've documented and witnessed putting in a new foundation in the bathroom and kitchen. I picked out what toilet to buy. Our huge garden tub was purchased from a lady Jason knows for $25 and we got the pump on eBay for crying out loud! We repaired.....decorated... painted...we have my late Grandma's hand me down furniture. The new furnace was put in a few yrs ago. Jason and I replaced our bedroom floor in the middle of winter and slept in our dining room for a month before we had carpet laid. There are so many memories here. Just the other day we were reminiscing about what the house looked like when we first moved in. Just picture living in chaos to the nth degree! I cooked out of a microwave, had a mini fridge I used in college, and a piece of drywall on saw horses for a kitchen counter. I did my dishes in the bathroom sink. It was not the house every little girl dreams of having one day but we made it work. Yes, the house is old w/ crooked floors and bumpy walls but it is ours. My hope and prayer is that the person God has chosen to live here will appreciate or at least acknowledge what we did. We would rather see our house bull dosed than mistreated. I know we need to take emotion out of it, just like what you have to do when you find a new house you fall in love with. I can't help it though. My brain is overwhelmed with so many thoughts and no matter what I do to try and busy myself, nothing is working to keep my mind from racing.
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I totally understand your perspective Monica. While it is important to take your heart out of it a little bit, I think homes wouldn't be worth anything if a piece of ourselves was not left behind. If I had done all of the work that you and Jason have gone through and was concerned about even turning a profit with my sell, I simply wouldn't. I would stay put, embrace the crooked floors and the memories, and wait until the market and the new owners are in a position to give you something near what it's worth to you both. Then again, that's just one opinion!
ReplyDeleteJust realized you wrote on my blog Heidi..whoops! God has so may more blessings for us than I even would've imagined. He is faithful and listened to our desires as we prayed about what kind of house we wanted to raise our future children in, a better school for them to attend, etc. He has met ALL of our expectations and then some. Although we love our current house, there's nothing left in Elwood to keep us here...except for family close by. Growing up, I would've LOVED to have grandparents who lived only 30 mins away vs 4.5 hours away. I know our family will still be involved in our lives and we will be closer to my parents and my sister and her kids.
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